UpOrDown[Gavin]UpsAndDowns

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin was not deaf to the fact that William had started to say a name and cut off before simply saying he'd not had a boyfriend in two years. This was definitely a sign of there being more tot he story, but Gavin wasn't going to push it. For one that wouldn't seem right. He didn't like being pressured and he doubted Will did either. The other reason was he obviously didn't want to seem TOO interested in Will's love life. Though part of him kind of wanted will to know that he liked him, the rest was still terrified of that attraction and what it might bring. "Ah." He said, nodding slightly. "Any prospects?" This question escaped before he had even considered it. He swore in his head, then continued. "Cuz I mean, if not I could so help. Like, you agreed to help me find some girls. I mean, I probably wouldn't be that good since I have no idea what your into but..." He decided to shut himself up there before he made even more of a fool of himself.

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

William was very, very thankful that Gavin hadn't noticed when he'd begun to say Jasper's name. Or at least, if he had noticed, he didn't say anything. Saying anything would just have made the situation much more awkward than it already was. It was kind of difficult to talk about boyfriends or any sort of relationships in front of the guy you liked. It was already difficult enough, and this making it a little worse. Though, at least he hadn't asked him to elaborate on what he was going to say. Though, now he had to deal with talking about everything else without mentioning the fact that he just so happened to like the guy who was completely straight. Will looked down again, and looked back up, biting his lip once more. Could he say yes? But what if Gavin wanted to know who? But, he really didn't want to lie. He cleared his throat nodding slightly. "Actually... there is someone," he said before he could stop himself. He blushed, but had now already said it. He sighed with a shrug, hoping that the blush was fading. "But, it can't work anyway, so... never mind," he said awkwardly, before looking up to where the drinks were. "Oh, look, our coffee," he said quickly, trying to brush off the previous subject. He sighed again as he began the short walk from where they stood, to where the coffees were being held.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin tried not to let the disappointment show when he heard Will liked someone. Of course he would like someone. After all, if he hadn't had a real relationship in two years, he was bound to at least like someone by now. This was something Gavin should have guessed, he didn't really know why he hadn't been expecting it. Still, despite his best efforts, some unhappiness did show on his face. After only a second though, he managed to cover this with a rather forced grin."Yep, right, coffee." He said almost as quickly as Will had, before following him over to the counter with the coffee and picking his up, taking a drink to help hide the fact that he was blushing yet again. This time it was because he was afraid Will would notice that he had looked disappointed. Gavin certainly didn't want to ruin their friendship by letting him know that he had a bit of a thing for him. He gave a tiny sigh and hid his frown behind another sip of coffee. He was a moron. Why would the guy have ever liked him anyway?

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

Will grabbed his coffee as well, careful not to spill any on himself. He'd had it happen far too many times and really didn't want for it to happen again, especially not in front of Gavin. That would just make him blush again, even though Gavin hadn't seemed to notice it. In fact, as Will took a drink of his own coffee, he couldn't help but notice a look upon Gavin's face. A look that looked oddly, and quite like disappointment. Disappointment? For a second, Will was convinced he was being the hopeful child that he was, but then reallied that it really was disappointment on his face. What the hell could he be disappointed about? The fact that he couldn't help set Will up with a date? Yeah, that was probably it. Though, Will couldn't see how he would want to do that, being straight and all. Wouldn't it be weird? Hmm. Well, if that wasn't the case then, what could it be? It wasn't making a large amount of sense to him at the moment, so he attempted to push it from his mind, with little success. He took another sip of the hot coffee, looking around somewhat nervously. He wasn't entirely sure what to say now. But wait, why was it so awkward between them suddenly? Will took another quick sip to keep himself from saying anything, because for some reason, he really didn't want to, in case anything slipped.. But, it was a little quick. "Ow, hot," he said after wincing and swallowing it. "Damn coffee, it's mean," he said and looked angrily at the cup. Hot coffee, for some reason, was the only thing he could think of to break the silence. But, it had burned quite badly.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin bit back a smile. After all, Will had burnt his tongue. It wouldn't exactly be nice to laugh at him. Still the fact that he had referred tot he coffee as mean was just amusing, and pretty adorable. Adorable? Yes, Gavin had just thought of him as adorable. He was in big trouble, especially considering the fact that he now knew Will was interested in someone and even with that knowledge Gavin still found him attractive. He figured if Will had a boyfriend or something it would make him stop. That plan had failed miserably, as now he had just added disappointment to his list of confused emotions. "Yes... coffee does tend to be hot." He said, trying to hide both the amusement at what had just happened to Will, and the slight disappointment that could still be heard in his voice. He failed, and his comment came out as sort of a mix between amusement and disappointment.

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

Will could tell that Gavin was definitely trying not to laugh at him, although at the moment, he didn't care. It had helped to lighten the mood, at least slightly. he didn't mind that he was secretly amused at the hot coffee, as long as it wasn't completely awkward between them. That seemed to be happening more and more, for some unknown reason. "Hey," Will said defensively, turning his angry look upon Gavin. Even though it looked quite angry, there was still a hint of a joke in his eyes. But, even though his own eyes showed happiness, there was something somewhat sad in Gavin's own. It hadn't really been there before, not since he asked him about the whole relationship thing. And, there was no denying that it was there this time. Will just wished he could know what it really meant. If only he could read minds... That would be fantastic. Will smiled at this thought to himself, while still pondering what Gavin's face could mean. "I wish I could read minds," he said suddenly, not meaning to at all. It had been more of a thought, yet he'd said it out loud. What if this made Gavin think that it was his mind he wanted to read, even if it was. Would that freak him out? God, he hoped not. He took another quick drink of the coffee. It seemed to be his excuse when he'd said something he hadn't meant to.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Will wished he could read minds? Gavin was slightly worried why he would say that. Was he curious what he was thinking? Maybe his expression was too readable. Gavin would have to do something about that. For now he simply covered the awkward nervousness that this statement brought to him by giving a slightly forced laugh. "Oh really? Well I'm glad you can't. If yo could you'd be able to hear the voice in my head..." What the hell was he saying? He needed to save face and fast. "You know, the one telling me to take over the world... and stuff." That seemed like a decent job saving what he was saying. After all, it seemed like a perfectly normal joke. Well, perhaps not perfectly normal but at lest marginally normal. He gave another laugh to show he was joking, just in case Will was slow and thought he actually had a voice. Well, a voice that said THAT. Rather than the reality, which was the stupid voice that had started the whole, liking of William situation in the first place.

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

Yeah, well, it would be a good power to have. You could know the answers to tests, find out how people really felt, know things about people that they didn't want you to know. Yeah, it all sounded like a good time, but it could easily hurt a person as well. It was terribly rude to but in on a person's privacy like that, especially when they didn't know you were doing it. It was only times like these that Will really did wish it was possible. Knowing Gavin's thoughts could be... beneficial. But, obviously Gavin didn't want his thoughts read either. Will smirked slightly as he began, Gavin had voices in his head? Oh, the ones telling him to take over the world, of course. Will sensed the hesitation between the two things he'd said. Or, maybe he'd just thought there was hesitation. Maybe not, And anyway, Gavin had been joking about the voices. It was silly of Will to believe he actually had them, Stupid, even. "Yeah, because then I could stop you trampling people, theoretically, of course, to get yourself to the top to be a tyrant with a sick amount of power. The world would love me," he said matter-of-factly, nodding with a happy grin.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin pretended to be annoyed, giving him a joking glare as he took another sip of his coffee. "Yeah? Well see if I let you be vice president of the world like I was considering until just now." Gavin had to admit though, having mind reading powers would probably be nice at times. Like right now. He wouldn't mind knowing if Will suspected anything. He sincerely hoped that Will didn't, but then again, if he did suspect and didn't seem to mind, that was a sort of good sign too... But no, Will liked someone so he would definitely mind if he suspected. And he certainly couldn't like Gavin back. HE might as well just forget about Will. A girlfriend would be a good start, but the idea of getting one just didn't really strike him as a good one. In fact, he didn't even like the idea of going and having a random fling, something he usually loved doing. What the hell was this guy doing to him?

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

This was their continual cycle. One saying something, something that wouldn't' seem like it would be a big deal, but ended up being one. A silence, or awkward period would follow, and then one would say or do something and they'd go back to joking. It was all kind of weird, and Will didn't know if he liked it. He loved having Gavin as a friend, he knew that, and he liked being able to spend more time with him. Even if they'd never be together. That was a slight downer, but Will pushed past it to just enjoy the time he did get to spend with him. Will looked down toward the floor,a s though he were actually very upset by this news. He gave an over dramatic sniff and looked back at Gavin. "That's fine. I'll just take over Mars." He took a drink of his own, trying to give off a supremeness, but knew he was failing quite miserably. Through all this, he was still thinking about just how much reading Gavin's mind at that point would make him feel better. If he could just know what he was thinking... he didn't know why, but it would make things better.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin had noticed the little cycle as well, and he was just as iffy as William about whether he liked it or not. Actually, he was pretty sure he didn't like it. Sure the joking parts were fine, but the awkward parts? They definitely weren't. They were just plain embarrassing, particularly if he was the one to start the awkward silence by saying another of his stupid little things. Like his idiotic questions. Like what had he been thinking, asking Will about his love life? The only way, in his mind at least, he could have been more obvious about that fact that he had a thing for Will have been to come right out and tell him. Though some obvious displeasure about that did show on his face, he mostly managed to cover it with a genuine smile that Will's comment about Mars brought to his face. "Oh really? Well you can have mars but I get Pluto, which is SO a planet, no matter what scientists say."

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

The questions Gavin had asked were a little bit odd, but he seemed to be genuinely curious, so Will didn't really put much thought into them. At least, not too much. Oh, who was he kidding? He knew that even subconsciously he was analyzing everything Gavin said for some hope. He had to admit, even to himself now, that he hadn't completely given up on the possibility of Gavin. He didn't like giving up, it wasn't something he did easily. There were things he'd been forced to give up in his past, but if there was even a glimmer that he could have Gavin, well he'd want to know it. So, basically, he was going to continue to hope for some sign. Or at least get it though his head that there had been signs. But, that wasn't going to be the case at the moment. Gavin didn't like him. He didn't. God, so why did he still hope? "Hey, but you already have earth!" he said with false anger, nearly spilling his coffee. Though, it was only half full by now. "But, I have to agree. I felt like I lost a part of my childhood when Pluto was deemed no longer a planet," he sighed.

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Gavin would probably have liked a sign that Will liked him just as much as Will wanted a sign that Gavin liked him, but he was already completely convinced that he had no chance. After all, Will had said quite plainly that he liked someone, and from the blush that went along with it, Gavin got the feeling that Will liked this guy a lot. Just because he couldn't get his mind off Will didn't mean he had any hope in the slightest that anything could ever happen between them. In fact, he had already completely convinced himself that it couldn't happen. Besides, that guy Will liked was bound to like him. How could he not? Even if Will said it couldn't happen, Gavin knew it would. He took another sip of his coffee, only just remembering he had it. Up till then he had only taken two or three sips, and it was starting to get cold, so he simply downed it now. "Yeah, that's why I refuse to admit it isn't a planet. And you know what? We can share pluto, how bout that?" He laughed a little.

[William&Lili&Ryan™]

It had been like this through most of his life. All the guys he liked were either straight or taken. He'd had a few chances. Until he'd met Jasper. He'd fell for him hard, and the situation was somewhat like the one with Gavin. he wouldn't' admit he liked him, but Will knew that he was bisexual. Will was persistent until Jasper had finally given in. That was the only time Will had ever really really wanted a boy before this. The only thing was, with Jasper, there was at least a little bit of a chance. Unlike Gavin who obviously only swung one way, and wouldn't' be changing that any time soon. It pretty much sucked not being able to have something you wanted so much. That had happened far too many times in Will's life, and it was just happening again. Oh well, he'd find someone. He hoped.

He looked at Gavin curiously and then swirled the coffee around in his cup. He put a thoughtful look upon his face, as though he was thinking very intensely about this. "Hmm, I guess we can share," he said finally, with a grin. "Pluto is worth it."

[Gavin/Sid/Holden]

Having finished his coffee, Gavin tossed it in the trash and got out another piece of his beloved vanilla gum, chewing it thoughtfully. He wondered vaguely what sort of guy this person Will liked was. He found himself wanting to know more about what Will liked in guys, and if he was really far from what Will did like. He didn't know why this had him curious, he knew even if Will did like guys like him, he already liked one so it wouldn't matter. Still though, he couldn't help wondering.

"This guy you like... whats he like?" He asked suddenly, then slapped himself inwardly. Curse his stupid mouth and it's habit of just saying whatever he'd been thinking, whether he wanted to say it out loud or not. It was times like this that he wished he could cut out his own tongue. Of course, not literally. But still. This was just bad. Will was sure to notice the abrupt subject change and the fact that he kept bringing up that old subject.